May 14th 1800

August 28^th 2007 [Tuesday]. I left the house early that morning-like every other. Morning was cooler; by each passing day. The drive seemed longer then usual. The trees were glistening - the sun light rising up beneath them. Cars passed me I passed them. When I arrived I received my usual greeting. What took so long? Then I realized this was it. My last day of my normal life, I was leaving in five days. The grass was wet, the ground hard from the vast animals passing day after day after day. The pastures unfruitful. A mark that meant summer was departing fast. I held back the tears as I went about my chores. What was I going to do without BB, around him I knew where I stood, I learned who I was. Would he miss me? That will never be known. The sun was as high as I was low. Clouds were as likely as me staying. The heat was passionate-as I of horses everyday, all my life, always. I was just fortunate I didn't have to face it all yet-soon enough though.

September 1^st 2007 [Saturday]. The day had come, It was exciting and heart-rending. I've never faced anything like this before. It's like the first snowfall, excited that it's snowing but I don't like winter. Time to say good bye to everything that's me, that was me. The sun was gone that day everything was grey and cool it was like the sun knew. Lace has been mine since I was nine. She will always be apart of me. I arrived at the barn as if it were the same and rode one last time. Summer had been grand, nothing ever stays the same. BB was my sun on that dark dreary day-just like every other. Saying good bye, heart in my throat, tears in eyes. I was okay. We drove away - waterfall over my face, they're suppose to be magnificent, and this was not. Or was it? Who knew one could have a bond this strong with such a free spirited creature. I knew, I've always known, it's always been part of my life.

                                                                                                                               E. Johnson